My cleaning lady was over tonight. She came at 6:30, she's spending 4 hours, and then she's done. It's a small house, so it doesn't take long I guess. Well, not long for her. If it were me cleaning, I'd be at it all day.
Anyhow, we often take so much for granted. I guess the children were both in a particularly defiant mood tonight. I had to call them a hundred times to get them to do anything. I called them about 7 times before they came down for dinner, and then I had to nag them to eat, nag them to change, basically I had to be on them all night to get them to stick to any semblance of a schedule. Had it not been for my constant nagging, homework would never have been completed tonight. It tired me out, and was quite frustrating too. These are the nights where you turn to God and say "Come on! Isn't life already tough enough? Cut me some slack here! Just make it easy for me for one day. Just ONE day!"
Anyhow, I just came downstairs, the children are now asleep- they have been for a bit (it's 10 pm), and I'm here in the family room, on my laptop while she finishes off the final touches on the kitchen. She just turned to me and said "You're very blessed. Your children are very smart".
"Pardon me?"
"They're very smart. As in intelligent. I was talking to them while I was upstairs cleaning. It's refreshing to talk to healthy, intelligent children. I work as an aid to disabled and autistic children all day. It gets tiring sometimes, and sometimes depressing. It was nice talking to your children. They're very pleasant, and very intelligent".
"Oh. I see. Right....Well, thank you".
I swear to God- I'll never complain about them again. I feel so guilty for even asking Him to make life easier.
Sometimes all you need is a little reminder of how easy things really are, or of how much worse they could have been. Imagine being a single mom to an autistic child, or a disabled child. That would be a hundred times more draining and complicated. I really am blessed.
I feel like such an ingrate.
1 comment:
Don't be so hard on yourself. AFterall working and having a young family is tough in today's world. Maybe your life is blessed, but if it is, part of that is because you choose to appreciate it.
Best wishes
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