Emergency Request Declined

It was declined. No emergency custody, no restraining order. The system fails me again. Like I said before, this man will have to kill me and the kids before anyone takes notice or helps. Beating up on them isn't enough, causing an emotional breakdown isn't enough to warrant emergency custody. That makes sense- let's send the children to spend the weekend with someone they have admitted abuses them. Let's do that instead of letting them stay in the comfort of their home with a mother who does not have a history of abuse or violence. And hey- when she says she's scared for her safety because she's been punched in the face before, let's just tell her it doesn't matter. She'll be just fine.

I'm hoping there is still a chance somewhere. The girl from the courthouse said that sometimes if you re-do the file and word things differently, or add some points that you forgot, it can get approved. Apparently, emergency custody has very specific criteria and isn't granted to everyone. I thought my case was strong enough. All I can do now is try again tomorrow.

So, tomorrow will be another full day in court, with a CAS visit at 3pm. They will be coming at 3pm to speak to the children. Let's see how it goes.

I can live without the restraining order. I cannot manage if I have to send my children to that monster on the weekend. I have no idea what state of mind they will come back in, and I am very concerned for their safety and well being.

In the interim, I've decided to remove yesterday's blog posting. I think it's just wiser, and I'll repost it later. I think I'll just post them all at once when things unfold and are in a "safer zone". In the meantime, I'll blog and safe the drafts until I'm ready to post.

How am I feeling at the moment? Very tense, very disappointed in the system, and scared for the children's safety. I'm really hoping the CAS pulls through. They are my last hope.

Then again, once he finds out that I was the one who called the CAS, he will be enraged, and there is no restraining order to protect me.