10 Year Anniversary

It was 10 Years ago today that I packed up my things and left my ex.  Today marks a decade for my freedom.  A decade ago today I was lying in the guest room of my parents' home, crying myself to sleep, wondering if I would ever be able to move on.  How would I raise a 2 and 4 year old all by myself?  How will I do it while trying to keep a corporate job?  How will I make ends meet?  How will I stay alive and prevent him from coming after me?  How will I survive?   

The beautiful thing is- after all the craziness I experienced over the years, life has finally settled.  So much so that today came and went. Un-eventfully. Just another peaceful day.  What a gift. 

And I'm happy. I'm finally really happy.  So happy it's scary.  Like I need to pinch myself to prove it's real.  

I wish I could tell that girl in the bed at her parents home- Don't cry. It's all gonna work out.  It's all gonna be worth it in the end.  And you- you're stronger than you think.  You're a survivor.  You will prove to be resilient.  And those kids are all yours. They are resilient too.  So don't waste those tears.  Be be happy. One step at a time.  Just breathe.  

Thank God for all the support that helped me through.  Thank you friends, family and a big thank you to my children.  I would not have made it without you.