Saturday, June 30, 2012

Graduation Day

My daughter had her grade 5 graduation on Thursday. She was all excited- beautiful dress, beautiful shoes, all excited to start middle school in September. I am so thrilled that she is embracing change so well.

As the graduation song started and the little graduates walked in, I found myself crying. I was the only parent in tears. But think about it. I raised her pretty much on my own. She was only 2 when I separated from my ex. And I put a lot of work to grow that little two year old into a 10 year old girl who will now be in middle school. As I watched this beautiful young girl walk confidently across the stage, I couldn't help but think of all the phases and events we went through to get her here. All the love, all the work, all the tears, all the struggles, all the court battles, all the conversations, all the encouragement, all the hope...

And here we are. And look how beautiful and confident she is. She has a great head on her shoulders. She turned out exactly how I would have hoped.

I am so proud of my little girl. And so thankful to God for the strength and support to get to this point.

So much to be thankful for....

Friday, June 22, 2012

Closing the Chapter with Dr Clive

Today I went to doctor Clive's office to pickup copies of our files- (most recent blood work etc). I delayed it until the last minute because I just didn't have the heart to do it. But tomorrow, all the files will be shipped to a storage centre, so this was pretty much my last chance. I'm glad I did it- the file contains a lot of details- correspondence between professionals about my divorce, details on CAS files, documentation about my son's ADHD, and so on- it's all stuff I might eventually need one day.

As I said goodbye to his nurse, I couldn't hold back my tears. She gave me a hug and told me I was one of his favorite patients. I told her I kind of already knew that. I loved Dr. Clive like a father.

I took one last look at the empty office, the empty shelves, wiped away my tears and left with my files.

He will be missed. And no doctor will be able to fill that void. Not ever.

Still- I feel honored and blessed to have known him. And for that I will always be grateful.

Rest in peace my friend. Sending love and prayers your way.